Reasoning

I was so excited to start this, then the holidays came and with it, family.  Wanting this to be private from everyone I know, there was never enough time to do it.  Now everyone's gone and I'm not quite sure where or how to start because I overthink things.  Finding a name for this blog took weeks, more than it should have based on what I read about naming one's blog.  But it had to reflect me.  I wanted it to signify both my intense desire to write and the obsessive thoughts and daydreams that I constantly have.  The latter clogs my head and maybe writing is a good release for that.  I've always wanted to write a novel based on the 'stories' that I have going on in my head.  That's not necessarily what I"m going to do here, but will any kind of writing help with the inspiration needed for that?  I've been told that if I want to write a story, I just have to start it and the words will flow.  But I feel like a light is supposed to go on at some point and if it never does, then it was not something that I was meant to do.  I suppose I could also look at this as a continuation of the diaries that I used to keep in my youth.  Boy do I wish I still had those.  Getting out the obsessive thoughts in writing might alleviate the occasional stress associated with that, I hope.  I think they might come out as angry little rants or just truths that I don't normally want to share with anyone.  I'm just going to let it all hang out here and see what happens.
No one know about this.  Not my family or friends and I want to keep it that way.  I don't want people I know inside my head because they might not like what they find there.  And I am a very private person.  If I end up with any followers, they will be strangers who will hopefully give me constuctive feedback and insight.  Maybe there's one person I would let in, but that's another post for another day.